I wasn't really sure what to write about this subject.. It's been a bit of a surprise followed by a stressful few weeks with leaving my team, organising a bike, organising guest rides for upcoming races, and then planning to get to them. It’s all left me a little frazzled.
There will be a few people surprised to see my name on the
list, because to be honest, it’s not like I’ve had a stellar season here in
Europe. But I didn’t know this was coming. My season wasn’t structured to plan
for this, and my focus wasn’t on making the team this year. I wanted to come
here, experience a season as a full time cyclist in Europe, and learn the ropes
as much as I could. So how did this come about?
Basically, back in March when I finished 2nd at the Oceania
Road Champs, I was actually the first Oceania resident to finish. This was only
established a few months after the fact, and therefore not really communicated
to anyone, including myself. I started hearing things when the rumors over who
would be selected for the Long List for worlds started circulating which was
late July.. A quick email and it was confirmed that I was in fact the Oceania
Champion, and as such had automatically qualified for a much coveted position
on the long list. On top of this, there is actually a place at the World
Championships race reserved specifically for me on top of the 7 others that
Australia has qualified for. However this does not mean I will be going. I
still have to be selected to be a part of the team. I have to prove I won’t be
a dead weight and am able to contribute to the team objective and make an
impact on the race.
I think I can do it given the chance, the support, and the
opportunity to do so. To race for Australia, to help the team to win the
Worlds, that’s motivation enough. I don’t care if the job given to me means
I’ll be out of the race within the first 30k. None of that matters. I know what
it feels like to win races as a part of a team, and for some reason it seems to
drive me more when I have the team goal to work for.
So for the next few weeks I’m trying to race as much as I
can to prove I can do it. The clock is ticking, and being that the parameters
around selection are tough in an environment where you’re basically going it alone;
I’m pushing the proverbial uphill to do it. But it won’t stop me trying..
I have to finish by again saying a HUGE thank you to Specialized Australia & Europe for helping me out whilst I've been here. Their support has been invaluable and I only hope to repay them and make them proud!